Josh,x

15/05/2012

So i've really been struggling today. Bad thoughts running through my already messed up head. I just feel like the weight of the world is crushing down on me. I've managed to cheer myself up a bit and chill out more than i was during the day. But i've just felt like crying all day, i got in a huge argument with my mum and i just feel like i don't know what im doing. Florida is bringing me down, its making me think about the past and i guess i haven't let ago properly yet. I must say this blog is really helping me though and its only been two days but it allows me to get my feelings out which ive been struggling to do for a while. Im gonna try and open up to my sister on Saturday if i get the balls too. Rebooked my flight home earlier so that i can sort out college and all that stuff which is another thing on my mind. I want to help people going through the same kinda thing as me, divorced parents, children that hardly see their fathers. If anyone wants just someone to talk too that can relate to them and maybe help them in one way or another email me at mfcleopatra@yahoo.co.uk

Peace xox

14/05/2012

Soooo Im in America at the moment with my dad and im finidng it hard. My dad suffers from depression/bipolar, stress and anxiety after a motorcycle accident caused him to lose his leg  and left me and my mum and moved to America when i was 11. I guess im struggling with letting go of the past and how different it could have been. To say ive been feeling sick to my stomach about things that have happened in the past 7 years would be an understatement. The friends ive met through all these changes though have been brilliant and i love them to death, But if i could go back to a simple life i really would. Since no one else seems to understand i thought i'd write all this shit on a blog so i can get it out somehow because at the moment its just building up and has been for a while.